Mood swings

I feel myself blowing up.
At every single little thing.

I dont want anyone to take my place

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in I won't let you down
It messed me up need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around

Please?

Not true

I hope that things can take another path.
Please dont let it be a month...

I.Don't.Care

Didnt I say I wouldnt bother? Crap.
I said I didnt need you, doesnt mean we cant be friends. This is the last time I'm gonna try.

If you think I have a motive, be my fucking guest.
You dont even need to accept my friend request.

One day, you're gonna stop and realised that you're pushing everyone away from you. One by one.

JUNG MIN

Ahh, hes damn cute. :D

Taiga: *puke blooehgrsh*

Life sucks,

What the fuck is your problem? Seriously.
Everything you are creating trouble about links nothing to the stupid phone.

Ah whatever.
I agree with mum why no one is ever close to you. I want the peace in my house now to last.

Ahhh, so peaceful...

心痛

哄得我泪眼迷蒙
做些事情让我被感动
望着你突然一阵心痛
一次又一次任那感情放纵
你的脆弱让我走不开
你的依赖所以我存在
想着你还是想到心痛
期待我做的将来你都会懂
有一天真如果有一天
但愿我还在你记忆中

Power trip

Why cant it be the visualizer instead of the air con that wasnt working?
Fine, the fan should work at least. T_T
Not that i didnt want to hear what was being went through, I couldn't even concentrate in that stuffy hall. Especially when more carbon dioxide was being let out.

Drifted off uncomfortably. Heard footsteps around the hall, people trying to fix it. The fans turn on and when they tried to turn on the lights. Poof, the fans went.

Finally around 10 o'clock, the fans AND lights came on. Which means the air con should be working. But they only switched on air con around 1.
I was sweating like a pig by then.

At least I passed my languages...
At least.
And somehow, I'm sure I can think of greater inventions then the macs.
But at the moment, I can think of nothing else. Macs ftw

I can never be where you are.

Finally got one unknown ore after 3 or 4 days...(claire's quest)
My first...I dont want to think about the second.

Denon C452, I'm happy.

Tomorrow Chinese intensive...

...

Save me...

One year, one month, one day

I never want to let you go.
I love you. Hope you had a happy birthday.

Hibernated this morning, vaguely remembering replying, "No." to my mum when she asked me if I wanted to go school.
Good Good, I still have to wake him up at 12.55.
Remember him calling around 12...I think? Then he said he will call me back.
Then received sms around 4...Yeah, good. My brain is still fuctioning.
Time to go get panadol. Stupid headache.

Come away with me he said,

and you can lead a new life.

One without pain or sorrow or

strife. You can be free. You

can be happy. You can be me.

I know I have extremely good friends.
And I thank god for them.

Splitting headache.
And im dead, I slept during math, I slept during lit.
Lucky was awake during POA. And did math during LIVE.

Feels good to come home to a comp. On Ge, then study.

Oh, just now when i was doing math, there was this extremely loud lightning.
I screamed damn loud and then i realised I was shaking.
Must be the ghost stories we were telling each other.

LOL. Better get back to studying.

Love study sessions,

Cos its too much fun, for amanda. :)

Was whacking teaching Amanda today, and of course studied myself.
So funn

If this your decision

And there's nothing I can do.
I can only say to you,
Even if you want to go from here alone,
I will be waiting when you're coming home.
If you need someone to ease the pain,
You can lean on me, my love will still remain.

I will still love you, when tomorrow comes...
And the day after tomorrow.
And the day after next...

The city

You held up your camera, started to change your lense. And started to see what did you want to take for the day, I felt blessed, and i could just stand there with you for as long as you want to.

Your pictures were awesome, even if you said it was not.

You can go wherever you wish, because I'll be there wherever you are.

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss him
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Or will we end up getting hurt
Is this love a myth
So tell me are you in for this
There's so much more than we can see
More than you
More than me
It takes two to believe!

Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why when you're young you fall in love

And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love [2x]

Friends...not

Thanks issac, thanks jere.

I told jean today that it really wouldn't matter if she accepts me or not. All I need is feng and the rest. She just nodded, to my surprise. I thought she would make some comment but even then, I will not take it back. But then again. I feel like I only have 3 friends in school.

Sighs.............
Females..........I dont understand them.

Yes, even myself.

CHAOS, GIN, LAWLIET

Ahh, only jean will know what that means.

Hectic day in school today, and yay for tomorrow cos there is no geog.
Amanda never come school, nobody to bully. TT
had to stay back for heartbeat full dress rehearsal. Thank god the lighting wasnt as bad as I thought. But the actors were half in and out of the light. -.-

One year with dear already, I love you.
Thanks for everything.
Sorry can't celebrate with you.

Ahh, chaos........*Drool*

The pain never really goes away,

New comp, new internet, AND SOMEONE HAS TO MAKE ME LOSE

Bloody crap, I lost the moment I went to my dearest and dying blog.

Thanks dear for the awesome taokaka's map picture. I love it!!!

And I got my new comp but had to deal with the loss of a friend, but I think others have it harder then me.

And oh yes, I passed my napfa 5 items!!!
And dar said:" If 5 items you fail, something must be very wrong~"
Damn, I nearly failed my SBJ. And safely did my shuttle run.

I know its hard, everyone do take care.

Short update.
Well, I shifted house and I dont have internet there.
So my updates wont be that regular.
I just spend my time at home lying on the bed.

I am finding it impossible to blog with a laptop.

I may be getting my comp in april. Yay.

Um um, i dont really have anything to say.
Next time then

I have nothing to say to an idiot like you,

Stitch chomping on a biscuit is simply too cute
Chomp Chomp

I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.

Whos in the wrong?

Love....
What is love?

-Love is when mummy saves the best piece of chicken for daddy-
bull...thats bullshit.

I have no idea why im caught in everything,
Sometimes, i can laugh it off with jeremy,
but its really not funny sometimes,

I have some energy to keep going, after all
When I look at you, I see myself,

Think before you speak,
WHOS really in the wrong?

And of course, you don't have the power to stop me,
I will be her friend,
If she has no friends, I will be her friend.
And if you are not happy with that, I have nothing to say.

After all, you were one of them...who threatened to leave me behind.
You told me those stuff, you hit me down.
You were one of them who didn't care whether I was crying or not,
If shes really friendless, i will be her friend.

Am I making sense?
No, i dont think so.

CNY~

Earned 420 plus plus during chinese new year, all going to the new comp.

School started, NUUUU
And the stupid apple song is stuck in my head.
No, its not bad apple, its the Hi-5 apple song jere was singing today. Damn,

Had quite an ok day today,
I think they're dota-ing now,
Oh well, have fun dar.

Lalalalala,

Im falling asleep on my chair.

I wonder how we can survive this romance,
But in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the tears,

I'm sorry darling for sounding so snappy whenever you call.
Whenever you put down, I just can't stop crying,
I don't want you to hear me cry

Drawing at the void deck

Today lessons was kinda productive, although I fell asleep in bio, but I listened in math,
All i can remember from live was, me rubbing jean's bruise caused by me, and walking in and out of the hall.

After school, went to house downstairs eat maggie!
After that supposed to study but all began drawing instead,

Haha, managed to draw out one drawing, jean drawed her manga,
Chatted abit and all went home to facebook. Lol

Yay, today was such a productive day,(For all the wrong things.)

Hate every beautiful day

I just miss you like hell now,

Lots of work to do, common test, cip all next week.
Plus CNY.

Someone just kill me

Its love, all over again.

As long as we're together,
I will always try my best to,
1. Let you have your space,
2. Make this last
3. Make your day happy.
4. Love you(I do not need to try for this one.)

I love you a lot dar,
Thanks for everything

Fatigue

I don't know exactly how tired I am but, I do know that I need to start taking afternoon naps. And for those who know me, I NEVER take afternoon naps unless I'm not feeling well.

I feel like my brain is like a dried sponge.
But its okay, if it keeps me from calling you, it keeps me from disturbing you,
My heart skips a beat, a couple of beats whenever I see you on msn, whenever I see, hear your name, whenever I talk to you.
Its like falling in love with you over again.
...
Its so weird, I don't know why am I crying...

I shall go and sleep,
And dream that you are with me,

Relationships

"Please do me a favour."
"Stop listening to my music cos its rude?"
"No, learn ragna on feng's comp."

Wtf, I agreed,

Played bishi bashi yesterday, died so early TT


Alot of people over at dear dear's house
So I think I'll go over tomorrow. :)
Love you,

Want to quit blazblue.

So many things happened today, just don't feel like mentionining it.
Fuck, suddenly damn depressed.

"For the time being, stay at home every sunday."

Faster die lah please, causing everyone trouble nia

Camp tomorrow

How am I going to survive?

Camp tomorrow. Can't see you for about one and a half days, cant the camp be shifted to a weekday? TT

Really wanted to head down to dar's house but cannot, got to get ready for camp.
Think i'll bring my phone, then can sms with him in the night! If he even wants to.
Sat going down after camp breaks, I swear.

Have mixed feelings about dad being discharged, TT Three days of being alone at home is great.
Now my room is my sanctuary when hes home,

Bet I'll miss you when Im in camp.
I'll probably even miss you calling me idiot or even garfield.
How did the garfield part come in? Oh ya, i was damn sian, the momment he called me to eat, i stood up immediately. But its not my perma nickname,
I dont want!

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.

#2 When she misses you, she’s hurting inside.

#3 When she says it’s over, she still wants you to be hers.

#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.

#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don’t let her go.

#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.

#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.

#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.

#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she’s beautiful.

#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don’t say a word.

#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

#13 When she’s scared, protect her.

#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.

#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.

#17 When she doesn’t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.

#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.

#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.

#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.

#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.

#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.

#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

#25 Don’t let her have the last word.

#26 Don’t call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.

#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.

#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.

#29 When she’s mad, hug her tight and don’t let go.

#30 When she says she’s OK, don’t believe it, talk to
her about it, because 10 yrs later she’ll still remember it.

#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.

#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

#33 Treat her like she’s all that matters to you.

#34 Don’t ignore her when she’s out with you and your friends.

#35 Stay up all night with her when she’s sick.

#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

#37 Let her into your world.

#38 Let her wear your clothes.

#39 When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her

#40 Let her know she’s important.

#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.

#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; “Who’s ass am I kicking today baby?”

#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you’d read it too.

I dont expect you to do any of those, i just want to be important to you.
I just want you to miss me and think of me,
Just a fraction of your mind will do....

I'm sorry im so annoying,

Is there a place where I can cry, alone?

I have to find myself

I miss you, even if you're right here beside me.

Theres so many things I want to say...So many things I wish i can do with you now,
But I have to study first.

And one of the qualities that I loved so much in you, is helpfulness. And now, I still love it.
I trust you, I want to be behind you all the way.
Its either I take the impossible way, or the hard way. And I have made my choice, someday, you will know what is going on, and I don't expect you to say I'm noble or anything, thats why i don't want to tell anyone right now, it'll be a secret!

But thanks so much chris, I really appreciate it, all your advice, all your patience.
You're an awesome guy, but don't worry, in my eyes, feng is still the best XD

"You know what kind of girl I think you are? I think you are a very cheerful girl."
"One of the greatest gifts you have, is empathy."
Not to be praising myself, but I think he is right.
Even if empathy is my ONLY talent. I will never let it go.

I miss you dear, please come back soon.

Faling...just let me fall

I felt better when i wasn't studying so hard during N levels.
Its not like I don't like studying or anything, with careful thought, I enjoy studying for several reasons.

But now, even when I'm studying like, in school, at home. I'm feeling worse...and worse...
Thanks for calling this morning, I really appreciate it.
I know today is going to be a shitty day, but when i wake up, I saw that for once, my dog did not pee on my floor, i am not late. I can still use the comp, and feng called me...
Maybe I should kick away that mindset,

Listening in class...I should do more for math and not just certain subjects...
POA test next week...hopefully can get disposal accounts right before then,

I want the past, in the present

Its just so hard to express how much I love you,
I remembered you sent me a song, more then words. I know I should not use words. I should use more actions.
And I only remembered the song after so long...I finally figured a way to express how I feel.
By not calling you and irritating the hell out of you.

I just want you to have your freedom too. But on the other hand, im frightened that we might drift away. You sound so cold nowadays. I hope you'll understand that, its because I don't want you to be angry every time I have nothing to say, I know you need time with others too.

All the time I didn't call you, i was thinking about you half of the time. Maybe 3/4.
You get along with others so well, its only me, I know the problem lies with me. I'm sorry.
Reading your blog posts to keep myself occupied, only to find that others knew how to treasure you, I did not.
(I'm typing this blog post out because there no where else for me to convey my message to you.) And I don't expect you to pity me or anything. I just want you to know I'm just...trying to express how I feel in a less irritating way.

Maybe its due to the fact that i have been studying from 3am till 5 am and fall back asleep again that i have been so tired, the need to hear your voice was just pushing me on and on.
After studying for so long, the results I got was falling asleep at my table and not understanding anything in maths. i did well for chem though, bio was hopeless.(It really helps when i hear your voice in the morning,)

Please don't lose your patience with me,
I still love you, its a poor excuse for what im doing but its true.

Smiles :)

Went to iluma to play blazblue yesterday with feng, jere and phay, alwyn was there too.

Quite fun actually. Thanks dear for the fries and bubble tea, I thought i was supposed to pay.
sat 851 to bugis meet jere and alwyn. Blazblue abit ler then went to eat,

then went back and bb again. -.-"

But all in all, it was quite enjoyable.

Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

Im so tired...
But I have to study later.

I just feel so tired these few days, even though I have been sleeping and all.
Maybe its just school,

Dear, sorry if I've been a pest, its just that I miss you a lot.
I will try to study more so i can keep myself more busy and will not bother you so much.
I seriously want us to last!

Go enjoy your show kay. I'll talk to you later.

Possibly going to burn midnight oil today, since I don't have a problem of waking up

Looks like I went mia for a long time, sorry! Internet was down.
Kayy, quick update. Had quite good food on sat and sun.
Saturday-Treated feng/taiga/feng feng taiga and jeremy to ajisen ramen,
Sunday- Went to eat steak at astons prime with the same two people.
finally had my macaroni and cheese.

No school tomorrow! All thanks to the awesome sec 4 and 5 batch of 09. I see already also stressed,

Think im heading down to see dar tomorrow. Miss him a lot.
In the meantime, having some intensive training to improve my bb and games along that line, hopefully it'll be successful.

Nothing much to say now, update next time.
Ps: Astons prime steak is really really good.

"You are here."

Just read that book today, Apparently it was so good, i couldnt stop reading it,

I can almost imagine her calling out, 'dear dear.'
And everything. I think I know how she felt when he screams at her..

I don't want him to be taken from me forcfully.
I promise I will treasure him,
...
Only that I know I say the stupidest of things sometimes.

In a sorrow space,
In my deepest dreams,
I remember, I remember seeing you
I remember your eyes
I remember your smile
I remember you

In a lonely night,
As I remember, I remember,
I remember hearing you
I remember your words
I remember your breath
I remember you

Chorus:
As I feel cold, I feel cold,
You give me your clothes; you give me your warm
As I feel hungry, I feel hunger
You give me your food; you feed me with life
As I feel down, I feel depressed
You give me hope; you feel me hope
You are here

In a sorrow space,
In my deepest dreams,
I remember, I remember seeing you
I remember your eyes
I remember your smile
I remember you

I love the lyrics, though its not really a song.
...
I love you,

Thank you dear

Was alseep soundly till 7.00 am this morn, and the best thing that woke me up was his call!

I guess he wanted to see if I'm awake. Yawns...

Better get something done by tonight. Tired to the max
Waiting for dar's call.
...
Will continue to attempt to finish my english compre and compo.

2010

The first day is nice enough,
First day of school was okay okay, except for the pile of holiday homework I have yet to complete.

So many things lined up for me in jan,
16 jan, parents-teacher meeting, I am so not looking forward to this.
Then I have camp at the end of jan. Argh. I hate camps.

Time to go finish my lot of homework.

SJ3 is mine

2009..the most eventful year of my life?

Its the second last year of my secondary school life,
And I actually met you,

To think I was trying to be someone I was not,
after thinking back, its just NOT worth it.

Dear, its about 9 months and still going?
I spent,
-120409, our first day together.
-120509, your birthday together.
-National day
-Christmas eve
-Christmas day
-New years eve
-New years day!
All together with you.

...

2010,
I will face this year with a positive attitude.
Gambatte!

BIRTHDAY WISH LIST!

That headphones(Its abit ex so people can share. I dont mind ^^)
That phone which im gonna get it soon, myself

Actually thats all i really want.
And please tell me what you all want alright?
I really cant read minds.

And so....
THE HEADPHONES SOUND SO GOOD. Omg.

But its 58 bucks. Its ok, you all can share. :D
Jere's xmas and birthday presents are about the same, just different colour.
^^

Christmas presents!

Should put my wishlist up!

A new school bag(I already know what I want)
A pencil case
MONEY(For my new comp)
VK manga(Volume 9, thanks iz!)
A plain black hoodie

Thats about it,
Things that I need.

My birthday list would be up soon! ^^

Thanks dar, for the awesome pencil case.

Thank god,
I passed.
Thanks everyone for asking,

Today,

Later on, 2.30 pm.

I would be getting my results.

Dont even know why im scared shitless.

Just hope I can pass.

So that my comp will stay with me

Visions

So many people are talking about what they want to do.
As for me, I have my career already planned out. But what if i don't do well?
5 more days, Im seriously freaked.

As for him, he doesnt know what he wants to do. But I'm fine with it.
Because whatever he does, he does it well. No matter whether its last minute or what.
And I know he'll excel, whereas I'm unsure for myself.
I want to go poly like all my friends, I mean, except for jeremy whos in jc(smart guy)

No use ranting, 5 more days.
If I fail, then its ITE.
I can't change anything now.

People have confidence in me,
But I dont have confidence for my results.

God help me

Crazy work shift

EPIC working yesterday.
The manager sucks, 3 of my school teachers were there, and we got there an hour late. :D

But all in all, had a good time serving drinks, having dinner afterwards and rushing for the bus.
Was determined not to get a lift home from her.
Talked to dar and phay and fell asleep.

Heading over to dar's house soon.
I love you. ><

I want it to last

Until the day you want us to stop,
I shall try to make you happy.
which I hope will not come soon.
Despite what you said.

Unable to get any sleep last night.

When destiny calls, you have to hold on.

I love my boyf to the max.
Although sometimes, I may not agree with what he does. I may get depressed over little things,
I still want to hold on.

Yesterday when you said,
"I cant decide."
"Lets meet tomorrow and talk k?"
"I love you."
I was really very happy but I didn't know whats going on,

When you called, I was really happy even though my stomach was hurting like hell.
And then I told you i'll be on your doorstep at 10am sharp, you said "okay".
I cant wait to see you,

When I was going to sleep,.
I typed on msn, See you later dar! 10 more hours.
You smiled.
When I said dont sad lar, I trust you already,
you smiled again.

And then what I had for supper was the subway cookies you gave me dont know how many weeks ago saying it might come in handy, you pro lar :D

Alrights, I shall go shower, dar, 40 more mins!

Ily

From the moment I met you I just knew you'd be mine
You touched my hand
And I knew that this was gonna be our time
I don't ever wanna lose this feeling
I don't wanna spend a moment apart

Chorus:
'Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you

Every day that I'm here with you
I know that it feels right
And I've just got to be near you every day and every night
And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me

Cos you bring out the best in me, like no one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you

And you know that we belong together, It just had to be you and me

Cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
That's why I'm by your side
Cos you bring out the best in me, like no one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you
Cos you bring out the best in me, like no one else can do
That's why I'm by your side, and that's why I love you

ふでペン ～ボールペン～

You fucking self-centered bastard

AFA~

Rest well dear, you deserve the rest. And the saber lily, and the cup which is like small fry compared to your figurine TT
__________

Thanks to people who made it possible for this year's afa to be great!
Bought dear a saber cup. I think its pretty cute, and dear got his saber lily!
Went to bk for lunch, dear was telling me about all the different lamps and started chatting.
Went back to afa and so much so slacked there. :D

Headed down to plaza play lan, eat dinner watch iz and jere sango awhile,
Then headed home.
___

I am really happy, I hope next year's afa, we can all still go together,
and that nothing will change.
Except for a few things which i think its best not to mention here.

I'm not blind you know

In short of knowing that, should I pretend I don't know it?
Or do what I feel like doing?
____

I know its almost over, I just hope you'll remember me.

In the end, what am I?

In the end, I think I'm just your emotional dustbin

__

I really wish I can hold you and tell you everything is alright,
but I know that's not gonna work.
I can only watch as a bystander and share your hurt.
But thats not enough.
...
Its not

You're the worst, ever

Have you ever wondered why I never listen?
Its because you never actually bother about me. Ask yourself, you only think of me as a burden.
So why did you want me in the first place? I heard you wanted me very badly. Bullshit.

All you ever do, is yell at me, see me as a hopeless case, deem me as useless. Fuck you bitch, fuck you. Compare me to other people, you never see my good points, my good points that I have and others don't. Blah Blah, the neighbour next door can take time of to visit his dad in hospital.I went out looking for jobs today, NOT TO PLAY.

And about money, if I told you this week you gave me more then 50 bucks, you would scream. If I told you it was less then 50 bucks, you'd be fucking satisfied. You disgust me,
You wonder why do I always turn to my friends, its because you never bother to actually understand me.

__

Was planning to write more but whats the point?

Be my last romance

Tiring day out, =X

Don't feel like mentioning what happened,

Hmm, on a side note,
Dear ate subway today, haha, he damn cute

And then it was arcade arcade and more arcade. Hehe

7 months ler, and I still keep falling in love with you.
Haha, today was a great day again!

Sorry dar, I still owe you a drink! :D

And dinner was nice, crapping about proton sagas again.
Then went to iluma, kind of a nice place but I have some unsettling feeling about it.

Then lazed about the arcade and all.
Sat 80 home with dar,

A lot of crap to endure when I reach home,
but just have to tahan and remember Im getting my dearest black guitar tomorrow!

Hehe,

Had a great day yesterday!
Thanks dear for putting up with me when I was sian,
Really cannot go jp lar, sorry jere, sorry iz.
Was planning to go yuki yaki today but all like cant, so bo bian.

Cooked for dar yesterday. I think my portebellos are good, even if I say so myself. =P
Crashed abit at feng's house, played comp then headed down to plaza, ishi mura to eat.
Salmon tofu mentai don and ramen ftw!

Then went to pomo's arcade.
Played puzzle fighter, ccb, the fking joystick spoil, can move left cant move right
But managed to get up to stage 6 and then got owned my morrigon,
Bought bubble tea, went up to drink and then headed home.

Today, jere never answer phone, i think bi still sleeping...
Amos cant go out..

Finally its saturday,
had an eventful day today,
rather tired.
____

Audi-ed today. i love my 'boyfriend'! Shes so cute. ><
I got the audi-sickness le.
TT

Memories

Thinking back, dear really changed me,

Thanks for everything.
And for the tsuruya too.
And the blogskin.

And I finally got tsuruya out of the gacha, I kept thinking I'll get haruhi again. =X
Won the V-13,
:D
Dar challenged me in KoF and let me win, Went to yoshinoya to eat. We were actually deciding between
Bk and Yoshinoya, I wanted yoshinoya and dar wanted BK.
We play scissors paper stone to decide. =.=
Then walk around and talk crap.
Then randomly walk into action city and started playing with the mind teasers there,
Then home-ed cos of my bloody curfew.

Thanks dar, thanks jere,

I feel horrible..

After only 3 hours of sleep...

And I couldnt stop thinking about you,
Im really sorry..

____

Things are fine, now.
Audition-ing, tired like dog,

and yes, V-13, YOU SUCK.
you puny horrible and smelly spammer!
TT
But darn, if players use her well,
thats a totally different story

Last day of school today,
Wonder if Im ever seeing my class again.
=X

Audition sea!

Finally found someone to play audi wih me. :d
Beat rush ftw

I know, im an idiot

I hate myself...

...

Cant seem to do anything right.

Seriously

No matter what...

No matter where I go, whether I fail or pass, I'll be happy as long as I can continue learning the guitar, K-ON! motivated me a lot...

Thanks dar, for helping me hear whether I'm right or not. :D

Im sleeepy

yawn yawn yawn

Why does it matter whether she is his girlfriend or not?

Maybe you are more then just a good looking guy after all...

Hmm..but I never regretted letting you go.

Can anybody save me?

Im tired.

God damn tired.

Must things turn out this way?

5 cm per second

I'll probably get killed.



An unexplained ache rose up when i watched this again.
The first time? I sobbed like hell.
...
Wonder if someday, will we end up like this?

Im fully prepared. I know I will not pass.

Should I be comforted? Since this is the path that has appeared. I studied and I still can screw up.

Should I be anguished? Since I have let everyone down and failed to create my own path.

My views of a christian and my views of a free thinker, what am I?

I'm so fucking confused.

Sheesh.

I can almost think what people's response will be,

And of course, my boyfriend's one stands out the most. "I can't be bothered."

Ah wells. Whatever. People will say he doesn't care about me.

But I think his answer is the most comforting of all. Since he doesn't actually bother what do I believe in. Neither do I, for that matter.

And damn you maple , quickly patch.

Its hard to believe now, that I'm actually turning against my church.

I hate it, that my own mum can tell me my figurines are satanic.

...

I shall continue walking, maybe things are not as bad as I imagine.

More reading, I suppose. It helps

Thinking...

I had no idea why im still thinking so much,

It has been a long time.

When the time comes, which path will I take?

An angel's dream

"Angels only have one dream. "

"And what is that?"

"An angel's only dream is to be human."

-Angeal

Crisis core ftwww. :D

Saber lily

Saving up for dar's christmas present now.

Dar so cute, today gave me 2 bucks, keep poking my cheek. XD

After this post, I got to go studyyyy for maths. Omg, my table's a mountain of books.

thanks dar for putting up with my maths nonsense.

Hehe, jere, joseph and nic came over. Kept getting distracted but managed to finish what I wanted to do.

Went for dinner, chicken rice and chicken curry don, lotsa chicken...=.=

Then dar, jere and joseph acompanied me to bus stop.

Hehe, must jy for maths tmr.

I love you koori! thanks for today. :D

Of all things I could check, I went yahoo answers. Stupid me. Hehe

Had a great day, :D

Burger king's mushroom swiss tendergrill is awesome. So is oyaku chicken don. XD

And I bought tsuraya figurine for him, out of the gachapon. Really hope he liked it!

and I want stitch coupleeee~

But must save money for AFA.

Dear on his way to malaysia now, must study today.

N levels start tomorrow ler. Its the final lap now.

Ganbatte yuki~

Giddiness

Went subway study yesterday after school with gaye and steph.

Laughed like mad. Studied.

Went dinner with mum, fainted in the toilet while bathing.

Talked to dear for awhile.

Went to sleep.

Maybe its due to N levels being so near and then thinking of the road that I took, I never regretted anything. Except maybe one thing, WHY DIDN'T I START STUDYING SOONER?

But its okayy, I knew I put in my best effort the last month.

And maybe its cause I knew that he had been the one encouraging me all the way and of everything that happened, I treasure him more now. I'm sorry dear, I'm sorry I took you for granted.

N levels are on monday. I got to go study now.

Lakeside buffet,

And just a random thought, I think he's right about saying how no one can understand the weird way I talk.

yuki: Tomorrow want to go amk park there light candle?

koori: For?

yuki: Mooncake festival.

koori: huh? Tsk, its mid-atumn festival is it?

yuki: Ya ya, mooncake festival.

koori: what mooncake festival. its mid atumn festival lah! Oh my god.

yuki: whatever lah. hehe

I think hes damn shit right.

I tried to breathe,

I could no longer locate my lungs.

I could not control my body anymore.

If the bill is terminated, I will pay and will not get you blacklisted.

But,

If our relationship ends like that, no amounts of money is going to bring you back..

Please don't leave.

Its been so long, I still want to keep going.

OMGG. Dear, stop sleeping. Wake wake wake up and talk to me. :D

So tired after school today. But still got to study later.,

Im gonna be missing from the world.

See you on 13 oct. :D

"If I give you an F1 ticket, will you accept it?"

"No. If you give me a ticket to go to the backstage to see the cars, then yeah."
"Thats true, if someone gives me an F1 ticket, I'll sell it."

"Thats right." And he smiled that damn cute smile.

Today was funnn. Went to his house and then he did some songs, after that trained down to city hall to Jaben.

Sent in his earpiece, then went to funan eat fries with mayo...

Then went home.

He smiled so much today! Its so addictive~

Productivity

I did a math paper in school today. And still enjoyed myself.

Had lunch, going to shower and studyyy!

Just press on, one more month!

I'm touched

Omg, I scolded dear for staying up late when he was researching for me. Sorry dear. TT

Yesterday, got caught in the rain while going to dear's house. Clothes all soaked to the max.

He made me take a shower and I wore his clothes, Super over-sized. Especially the shirt, I looked like some..hip hop person. Haha,

Went down to suntec at about 3 plus. My earpiece officially broke down, *grieving for my earpiece*

Went to games convention. Fun.

Then walked to plaza and ate just acia. Haha, Then no lifed at the arcade. After I get my earpiece, I promise myself I will study. :D

Can't wait for dear to wake up.

<3

Err, someone told me to post my pics.

So here goes, sorry dar. Dont kill me XD

What if?

Last night, I couldn't sleep, sms-ed dar.

"Well, good night. If I cant sleep by 12, Im gonna jump out of my window."

I guess this is the price to pay for eating too much sweets. :D

Heading down to dar's house in another 2 hours(seems so long TT)

I just gaved in to temptation.

AND OH OH OH, I was damn productive yesterday.

Yay, so happy and proud of myself. :D

Will study later in the night.

Anyone got any plans for tomorrow?

futari de zutto odoru yakusoku
fukuramu mune ga uso ni suru
amairo no kami　kagami utsushite
junban tagai ni suite iku

onaji beddo yurareteta
futari fureau　te to te musundeta ito

mishiranu kao utsuru
sasayaku koe hikuku
nigiru HANMAA tataki tsukeru no
tobichire GARASUTO

futari de tsunda shiro
tsumi kisaikou kusushite
kishimu hone　kishi to hime he to
kane ga tsugeru ENDO

yugamu kagami　te to te awase　zureru yubi no nagasa

kore kara chigau beddo de neru no?
kimi ga tsubuyaku [oyasumi]
doa no bumawashi tobira wo akeru
oto ni hane okitsukamu suso he

nobita yubi ni kuchidukete
hashiru shoudou　sebone nukete iku setsuna

akari ha kesanai de
hitori de neru yoru ha
mada iya to sakenda migi te de
butsukeru no makura

[obake ga kowai] nante kodomo dane boku no hime
nureta hitomi　chigau kotoba
iitage ni　mitsumeru

papa to mama no shiranai jikan ha
owaru no kana?　tooi yume
usui taoru koshi todoku netsu ga
kowasu boku no tomegane

koe wo oshi koroshite
tobira ha kagishimete
mitsumeau hitomi to hitomi ga
kotae wo sagasu

osanai iiwake wo akari goto keshite iku
sono kami wo sukue nai nara
boku ha uso mo tsuku yo

toki wo tomete ima ha
futari de dakiatte
kizamu kodou hitotsu hitotsu wo
SHINKURO sasetai

toketeku atsui iki
dakitometa nukumori ni
kore ijou ha ugokenai yo
maru de kimi no NAITO

Im thankful that you're still here

Horrible afternoon, it was hell, I swear.

Im sorry dar,

____

Wanted to go to school today but my body is saying no, had a headache and fell back asleep. Woke up around 8 plus. Oh wells. Uh..

I want to get dar a tripod NOW, but my wallet is saying no. Not yet anyway.

Alrights, breakfast and then study.

Yuki shall be a very productive girl today.

I love you, cant wait for sat!

Im missing you until it hurts

My head hurts,

My heart hurts even more.

IM fustrated, I don't know what to do for you anymore.

Had a okayy day in school.
tiring though.

The teachers already gave us homework.
This is new in NA,

...

Better go start on it.

(Dar, sorry for calling you so many times.
Dont angry horr)

JP, Issac, Feng, Jere, sango and daytona

In the end, didnt go to IT fair, went jp instead.

Sango-ed one round and lost,
AND I LOSE. =)

Tore up the card, no use anyway.
Jere kenna sr wang yi, grats man. Shared card protecters card price with him.

Then played daytona with jere's brother, feng, jere and issac. I got 2nd!
Though its cos they were playing burnout style, =.= dar got first! XD
I think jere's brother got 3rd.

Then mrt home.

Went for breakfast just now.
Talked about new house and all, yay. Mum agrees to $1500 for new comp.
Its already 6, dear, wake up lehhs. :(

Was very unproductive today. :D

Will be tomorrow

Plan for today

Shower!
Bus down to dar's house
Kick him out of bed
Get him to shower(I wonder how Im gonna manage this ALONE)
Train-ed down to suntec
IT fair
Try not to let dar buy anything(I think I can manage this with mao's help)
WereCat says:
i will pounce on him
every time
WereCat says:
he so much for
reaches for his wallet
=P
MAO FTW!

And then sango,
THANKS JERE AGAIN FOR LU MENG ADVISOR!
<3

<3

I will not forget what dar told me today. :D

And by the way, I don't have your number anymore cos I think its not worth keeping, if you think the same way and has deleted my number, good for you. :)

Holidays going to over soon. Very soon, have to hit the books.

Thanks feng for selling me your speakers. And sound card, come over soon and fix it up. :D

Tomorrow meeting jere and others(hopefully?), and no more working ler, means no bunking at Ichak's house :(

I guess I should get back to playing Zelda, I want to complete it. :D

Later,
Yuki

I hope you still love me

Mou ikiba ga nai wa kono koi no netsuryou

Haiiro no kumo monokuro no kensou
Hizashi wa kageri

Yuugure wa iro o kaete iku

Aa sekai ga nijinde
Sore de mo suki de irareru ka nante

Wakatteru kedo dou sureba ii no
Dou shitara dou sureba

Baka da na watashi…

Hajimeru no yo kore wa sensou
Ureshisou na kimi o miru nante
Setsunaru koi sore wa tsumi
Misete ageru watashi no omoi o

Sakende mita megahon wa kowareteta no

Dore dake senobishitatte
Kimi no shikai ni hairanai

Aa itsu no ma ni ka hareta sora
Zenzen niawanai

Kimochi ga osaerarenakute
Doushitara dou sureba

Naite nanka nain da kara ne
Daisuki

Tatakau no yo haato o ute
Shudan nante eranderarenai
Sukaato hirari misetsukeru no yo
Kimi no shisen ubatte miseru no

Geigeki youi
Senkyou wa ima da furi na no desu

Koi wa moumoku
Kimi no kuchizuke de me ga sameru no!

_____

On a side note, I think gravitation is the sweetest yaoi I ever watched.
Yuki Eiri <3 And Sakuma Ryuichi!
I think I can faint