Should I be comforted? Since this is the path that has appeared. I studied and I still can screw up.
Should I be anguished? Since I have let everyone down and failed to create my own path.
My views of a christian and my views of a free thinker, what am I?
I'm so fucking confused.
Sheesh.
I can almost think what people's response will be,
And of course, my boyfriend's one stands out the most. "I can't be bothered."
Ah wells. Whatever. People will say he doesn't care about me.
But I think his answer is the most comforting of all. Since he doesn't actually bother what do I believe in. Neither do I, for that matter.
And damn you maple , quickly patch.
Its hard to believe now, that I'm actually turning against my church.
I hate it, that my own mum can tell me my figurines are satanic.
...
I shall continue walking, maybe things are not as bad as I imagine.
More reading, I suppose. It helps
