Lonliness

Once I experienced the warmth of you for 3 days straight, I cannot stand the feeling of returning to a completely empty house. When i cry, no one sees, no one knows. Once I experience the warmth of your voice and smses, I cannot bear it when I don't hear you. I hate that feeling, There's nothing to remind me of you, no hoodie, no nothing.
If loving is wrong, then I never ever want it to be right.

Had english and chinese papers today. I slept as little as I could but yet, I screwed up. The topics are just not registering themselves in my head. Except I think I did well for chinese compo. But I didn't feel the joy nor any satisfaction. So, in the end. Told nothing happy to dear. I didn't know why i cried in the first place, at first, I thought it was that the papers were difficult. But his message just made me cry more. Then I know, I miss you. I hate being lonely.
Ate my lunch, watched two dramas on channel 8. Felt an overwhelming feeling to see him, give him a hug. And then whisper in his ear how much i love him. But he wasn't by my side.
Went up to called him, he said he was still in the poly.
...Didn't feel like talking to him when he was still there.
Finally, my internet worked. Don't think I will be online for very long tonight. Still got to mug social studies, BIG TIME. For lit, I have full confidence. ^^

I don't know, I still want to see him.