No one but you.

Koori - chan: 1 thing 2 do. 3 words 4 you. I love you.
Yes. I definitely do. I promise, I will not mention Jeremy again. Or jean. Like I said, i'll focus, on OUR future. So please, do stop worrying. You're fine the way you are. Relationships are meant to give you happiness. Not stress.
The moment when you said you loved me, I just couldn't find the words to describe how I felt. My eyes welled up with tears, tears of joy. I probably can't find someone that loves me more then you do. But even if I could, there is no one that I can love so much. Beyond all the unbearable longing to see you, tears, pain, stress, there is the unmistakable happiness. I. Am. Happy.

Went to celebrate Lao ma's birthday today. Food was okayy, service was fine. Timing sucks.
After that, met feng and amos at raffles place mrt. Then sat train down to plaza. Went to couple lab. Thanks dear. I know it was expensive, I will ALWAYS wear that ring, except maybe when Im bathing.
Then walked with amos for a little while. After he left, we went to carls jr. Shared a meal with him. Then went to library study. Managed to finish 1 chapter before we went to the usual rooftop. It was the best, EVER.
When you asked me who Jeremy was to me, my head was whirling. I was frightened by the look in your eyes, but I couldn't tear myself away from that look. Your grip was firm, I knew you wanted my answer. I thought, of how to phrase my answer. He is nothing, but someone in my past. But, I treasure my past. Because if I didn't go through what I did, I wouldn't be who I am.
When you asked me if I loved you, your look was even more intense. When you leaned in, I couldn't think anymore. When I could finally think again, my past was gone, only my future remained. However, I knew I had hurt you. I'm sorry. Maybe in your eyes, Im mature. But...Im still a mature kid. You have to believe me, im afraid of losing you too.
Stared out at the night view, the smell of the fresh air plus his scent, I miss it.

Walked to the bus stop. 70-ed back. He was pretty quiet on the ride home. However, I knew I was still on his mind because whenever the bus jerks, his arms would always secure me. Somehow, I felt so useless. I couldnt make you smile, you look so weary, so tired. However, I still can't tear my eyes from yours. When you said we should see each other less, my heart sank even if I knew you're right. I reached out to touch your face one last time before you went on the bus. I couldnt walk for a few minutes when the bus pulled away from the stop. I miss you, terribly.
Strolled home, bathed. Chatted, now blogging.

I don't know how to put the rest of my feelings in words. But please dear, know that I love you and I don't want to lose you.