I don't want to lose you

Today proved to be fruitful. I managed a new poem, well. It isn't really good as my mood was, for once. Not good when I wrote it. Anyway...

It had never occurred to me
People were that bad.
I thought that they were kind,
I didn't know they were this mad.

Screwing up someone else's life
Is something I'll never do.
However, when someone accuses you of that,
how the hell am I suppose to feel?

Am I suppose to leave you?
Are these feelings suppose to end?
So what if I were to leave you alone,
Will anything change then?

Pardon me, I'm selfish.
I still need you to go on.
This obstacle will not affect us,
NO one will ever break our bond.

Its lousy but...whatever, Perfect for how I felt.
Geog is interesting. Mrs wong crushed a lizard alive. I was screaming on my chair.
And guess what? I passed my 2.4. My mood changed from happiness, to worried. And finally, I was freaking mad. I know my boyfriend, if he doesn't want to leave. NO ONE, not even me can get him to leave. Damn it, my mood did soften though. But its like...so whatever.
My first thought was to break up with him immediately but I slapped myself for being this childish. I will get through this, with him. Its not gonna break us, its gonna strengthen us. I bring this relationship before you daddy god, bless it. Make it flourish, make it last.
During my 2.4, a lot of things were on my mind. One main thing was, Amos and Alwyn.
Alwyn is still emoing but I'm not pissed, more of worried. I can't tell anyone. Koori cant be bothered, Im not allowed to tell van or amos. AM I SUPPOSED TO KEEP IT TO MYSELF? AM I IN THIS ALONE?
Glad that I got that out, and glad that Amos and van are talking. Looks like our path is getting brighter. Cheer up dear :)
I realized that I am already ready for a life together with him(I'm not referring to marriage), just being together with him. And stuff. Calling him everyday become a daily thing. If I don't worry about him, somethings very wrong with me then. I'm also getting the hang out balancing social life with him. Thanks for your support everyone. Especially with the L4D team and Kor.
I shan't blog any further.
Later,