I have nothing to say to an idiot like you,

Stitch chomping on a biscuit is simply too cute
Chomp Chomp

I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.

Whos in the wrong?

Love....
What is love?

-Love is when mummy saves the best piece of chicken for daddy-
bull...thats bullshit.

I have no idea why im caught in everything,
Sometimes, i can laugh it off with jeremy,
but its really not funny sometimes,

I have some energy to keep going, after all
When I look at you, I see myself,

Think before you speak,
WHOS really in the wrong?

And of course, you don't have the power to stop me,
I will be her friend,
If she has no friends, I will be her friend.
And if you are not happy with that, I have nothing to say.

After all, you were one of them...who threatened to leave me behind.
You told me those stuff, you hit me down.
You were one of them who didn't care whether I was crying or not,
If shes really friendless, i will be her friend.

Am I making sense?
No, i dont think so.

CNY~

Earned 420 plus plus during chinese new year, all going to the new comp.

School started, NUUUU
And the stupid apple song is stuck in my head.
No, its not bad apple, its the Hi-5 apple song jere was singing today. Damn,

Had quite an ok day today,
I think they're dota-ing now,
Oh well, have fun dar.

Lalalalala,

Im falling asleep on my chair.

I wonder how we can survive this romance,
But in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the tears,

I'm sorry darling for sounding so snappy whenever you call.
Whenever you put down, I just can't stop crying,
I don't want you to hear me cry

Drawing at the void deck

Today lessons was kinda productive, although I fell asleep in bio, but I listened in math,
All i can remember from live was, me rubbing jean's bruise caused by me, and walking in and out of the hall.

After school, went to house downstairs eat maggie!
After that supposed to study but all began drawing instead,

Haha, managed to draw out one drawing, jean drawed her manga,
Chatted abit and all went home to facebook. Lol

Yay, today was such a productive day,(For all the wrong things.)

Hate every beautiful day

I just miss you like hell now,

Lots of work to do, common test, cip all next week.
Plus CNY.

Someone just kill me

Its love, all over again.

As long as we're together,
I will always try my best to,
1. Let you have your space,
2. Make this last
3. Make your day happy.
4. Love you(I do not need to try for this one.)

I love you a lot dar,
Thanks for everything

Fatigue

I don't know exactly how tired I am but, I do know that I need to start taking afternoon naps. And for those who know me, I NEVER take afternoon naps unless I'm not feeling well.

I feel like my brain is like a dried sponge.
But its okay, if it keeps me from calling you, it keeps me from disturbing you,
My heart skips a beat, a couple of beats whenever I see you on msn, whenever I see, hear your name, whenever I talk to you.
Its like falling in love with you over again.
...
Its so weird, I don't know why am I crying...

I shall go and sleep,
And dream that you are with me,

Relationships

"Please do me a favour."
"Stop listening to my music cos its rude?"
"No, learn ragna on feng's comp."

Wtf, I agreed,

Played bishi bashi yesterday, died so early TT


Alot of people over at dear dear's house
So I think I'll go over tomorrow. :)
Love you,

Want to quit blazblue.

So many things happened today, just don't feel like mentionining it.
Fuck, suddenly damn depressed.

"For the time being, stay at home every sunday."

Faster die lah please, causing everyone trouble nia

Camp tomorrow

How am I going to survive?

Camp tomorrow. Can't see you for about one and a half days, cant the camp be shifted to a weekday? TT

Really wanted to head down to dar's house but cannot, got to get ready for camp.
Think i'll bring my phone, then can sms with him in the night! If he even wants to.
Sat going down after camp breaks, I swear.

Have mixed feelings about dad being discharged, TT Three days of being alone at home is great.
Now my room is my sanctuary when hes home,

Bet I'll miss you when Im in camp.
I'll probably even miss you calling me idiot or even garfield.
How did the garfield part come in? Oh ya, i was damn sian, the momment he called me to eat, i stood up immediately. But its not my perma nickname,
I dont want!

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.

#2 When she misses you, she’s hurting inside.

#3 When she says it’s over, she still wants you to be hers.

#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.

#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don’t let her go.

#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.

#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.

#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.

#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she’s beautiful.

#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don’t say a word.

#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

#13 When she’s scared, protect her.

#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.

#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.

#17 When she doesn’t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.

#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.

#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.

#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.

#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.

#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.

#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

#25 Don’t let her have the last word.

#26 Don’t call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.

#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.

#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.

#29 When she’s mad, hug her tight and don’t let go.

#30 When she says she’s OK, don’t believe it, talk to
her about it, because 10 yrs later she’ll still remember it.

#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.

#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

#33 Treat her like she’s all that matters to you.

#34 Don’t ignore her when she’s out with you and your friends.

#35 Stay up all night with her when she’s sick.

#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

#37 Let her into your world.

#38 Let her wear your clothes.

#39 When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her

#40 Let her know she’s important.

#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.

#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; “Who’s ass am I kicking today baby?”

#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you’d read it too.

I dont expect you to do any of those, i just want to be important to you.
I just want you to miss me and think of me,
Just a fraction of your mind will do....

I'm sorry im so annoying,

Is there a place where I can cry, alone?

I have to find myself

I miss you, even if you're right here beside me.

Theres so many things I want to say...So many things I wish i can do with you now,
But I have to study first.

And one of the qualities that I loved so much in you, is helpfulness. And now, I still love it.
I trust you, I want to be behind you all the way.
Its either I take the impossible way, or the hard way. And I have made my choice, someday, you will know what is going on, and I don't expect you to say I'm noble or anything, thats why i don't want to tell anyone right now, it'll be a secret!

But thanks so much chris, I really appreciate it, all your advice, all your patience.
You're an awesome guy, but don't worry, in my eyes, feng is still the best XD

"You know what kind of girl I think you are? I think you are a very cheerful girl."
"One of the greatest gifts you have, is empathy."
Not to be praising myself, but I think he is right.
Even if empathy is my ONLY talent. I will never let it go.

I miss you dear, please come back soon.

Faling...just let me fall

I felt better when i wasn't studying so hard during N levels.
Its not like I don't like studying or anything, with careful thought, I enjoy studying for several reasons.

But now, even when I'm studying like, in school, at home. I'm feeling worse...and worse...
Thanks for calling this morning, I really appreciate it.
I know today is going to be a shitty day, but when i wake up, I saw that for once, my dog did not pee on my floor, i am not late. I can still use the comp, and feng called me...
Maybe I should kick away that mindset,

Listening in class...I should do more for math and not just certain subjects...
POA test next week...hopefully can get disposal accounts right before then,

I want the past, in the present

Its just so hard to express how much I love you,
I remembered you sent me a song, more then words. I know I should not use words. I should use more actions.
And I only remembered the song after so long...I finally figured a way to express how I feel.
By not calling you and irritating the hell out of you.

I just want you to have your freedom too. But on the other hand, im frightened that we might drift away. You sound so cold nowadays. I hope you'll understand that, its because I don't want you to be angry every time I have nothing to say, I know you need time with others too.

All the time I didn't call you, i was thinking about you half of the time. Maybe 3/4.
You get along with others so well, its only me, I know the problem lies with me. I'm sorry.
Reading your blog posts to keep myself occupied, only to find that others knew how to treasure you, I did not.
(I'm typing this blog post out because there no where else for me to convey my message to you.) And I don't expect you to pity me or anything. I just want you to know I'm just...trying to express how I feel in a less irritating way.

Maybe its due to the fact that i have been studying from 3am till 5 am and fall back asleep again that i have been so tired, the need to hear your voice was just pushing me on and on.
After studying for so long, the results I got was falling asleep at my table and not understanding anything in maths. i did well for chem though, bio was hopeless.(It really helps when i hear your voice in the morning,)

Please don't lose your patience with me,
I still love you, its a poor excuse for what im doing but its true.