Relationships

"Please do me a favour."
"Stop listening to my music cos its rude?"
"No, learn ragna on feng's comp."

Wtf, I agreed,

Played bishi bashi yesterday, died so early TT


Alot of people over at dear dear's house
So I think I'll go over tomorrow. :)
Love you,

Want to quit blazblue.

So many things happened today, just don't feel like mentionining it.
Fuck, suddenly damn depressed.

"For the time being, stay at home every sunday."

Faster die lah please, causing everyone trouble nia

Camp tomorrow

How am I going to survive?

Camp tomorrow. Can't see you for about one and a half days, cant the camp be shifted to a weekday? TT

Really wanted to head down to dar's house but cannot, got to get ready for camp.
Think i'll bring my phone, then can sms with him in the night! If he even wants to.
Sat going down after camp breaks, I swear.

Have mixed feelings about dad being discharged, TT Three days of being alone at home is great.
Now my room is my sanctuary when hes home,

Bet I'll miss you when Im in camp.
I'll probably even miss you calling me idiot or even garfield.
How did the garfield part come in? Oh ya, i was damn sian, the momment he called me to eat, i stood up immediately. But its not my perma nickname,
I dont want!

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.

#2 When she misses you, she’s hurting inside.

#3 When she says it’s over, she still wants you to be hers.

#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.

#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don’t let her go.

#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.

#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.

#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.

#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she’s beautiful.

#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don’t say a word.

#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

#13 When she’s scared, protect her.

#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.

#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.

#17 When she doesn’t answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.

#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.

#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.

#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.

#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.

#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.

#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

#25 Don’t let her have the last word.

#26 Don’t call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.

#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.

#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.

#29 When she’s mad, hug her tight and don’t let go.

#30 When she says she’s OK, don’t believe it, talk to
her about it, because 10 yrs later she’ll still remember it.

#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.

#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

#33 Treat her like she’s all that matters to you.

#34 Don’t ignore her when she’s out with you and your friends.

#35 Stay up all night with her when she’s sick.

#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

#37 Let her into your world.

#38 Let her wear your clothes.

#39 When she’s bored and sad, hang out with her

#40 Let her know she’s important.

#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.

#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; “Who’s ass am I kicking today baby?”

#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you’d read it too.

I dont expect you to do any of those, i just want to be important to you.
I just want you to miss me and think of me,
Just a fraction of your mind will do....

I'm sorry im so annoying,

Is there a place where I can cry, alone?

I have to find myself

I miss you, even if you're right here beside me.

Theres so many things I want to say...So many things I wish i can do with you now,
But I have to study first.

And one of the qualities that I loved so much in you, is helpfulness. And now, I still love it.
I trust you, I want to be behind you all the way.
Its either I take the impossible way, or the hard way. And I have made my choice, someday, you will know what is going on, and I don't expect you to say I'm noble or anything, thats why i don't want to tell anyone right now, it'll be a secret!

But thanks so much chris, I really appreciate it, all your advice, all your patience.
You're an awesome guy, but don't worry, in my eyes, feng is still the best XD

"You know what kind of girl I think you are? I think you are a very cheerful girl."
"One of the greatest gifts you have, is empathy."
Not to be praising myself, but I think he is right.
Even if empathy is my ONLY talent. I will never let it go.

I miss you dear, please come back soon.

Faling...just let me fall

I felt better when i wasn't studying so hard during N levels.
Its not like I don't like studying or anything, with careful thought, I enjoy studying for several reasons.

But now, even when I'm studying like, in school, at home. I'm feeling worse...and worse...
Thanks for calling this morning, I really appreciate it.
I know today is going to be a shitty day, but when i wake up, I saw that for once, my dog did not pee on my floor, i am not late. I can still use the comp, and feng called me...
Maybe I should kick away that mindset,

Listening in class...I should do more for math and not just certain subjects...
POA test next week...hopefully can get disposal accounts right before then,

I want the past, in the present

Its just so hard to express how much I love you,
I remembered you sent me a song, more then words. I know I should not use words. I should use more actions.
And I only remembered the song after so long...I finally figured a way to express how I feel.
By not calling you and irritating the hell out of you.

I just want you to have your freedom too. But on the other hand, im frightened that we might drift away. You sound so cold nowadays. I hope you'll understand that, its because I don't want you to be angry every time I have nothing to say, I know you need time with others too.

All the time I didn't call you, i was thinking about you half of the time. Maybe 3/4.
You get along with others so well, its only me, I know the problem lies with me. I'm sorry.
Reading your blog posts to keep myself occupied, only to find that others knew how to treasure you, I did not.
(I'm typing this blog post out because there no where else for me to convey my message to you.) And I don't expect you to pity me or anything. I just want you to know I'm just...trying to express how I feel in a less irritating way.

Maybe its due to the fact that i have been studying from 3am till 5 am and fall back asleep again that i have been so tired, the need to hear your voice was just pushing me on and on.
After studying for so long, the results I got was falling asleep at my table and not understanding anything in maths. i did well for chem though, bio was hopeless.(It really helps when i hear your voice in the morning,)

Please don't lose your patience with me,
I still love you, its a poor excuse for what im doing but its true.

Smiles :)

Went to iluma to play blazblue yesterday with feng, jere and phay, alwyn was there too.

Quite fun actually. Thanks dear for the fries and bubble tea, I thought i was supposed to pay.
sat 851 to bugis meet jere and alwyn. Blazblue abit ler then went to eat,

then went back and bb again. -.-"

But all in all, it was quite enjoyable.

Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

Im so tired...
But I have to study later.

I just feel so tired these few days, even though I have been sleeping and all.
Maybe its just school,

Dear, sorry if I've been a pest, its just that I miss you a lot.
I will try to study more so i can keep myself more busy and will not bother you so much.
I seriously want us to last!

Go enjoy your show kay. I'll talk to you later.

Possibly going to burn midnight oil today, since I don't have a problem of waking up

Looks like I went mia for a long time, sorry! Internet was down.
Kayy, quick update. Had quite good food on sat and sun.
Saturday-Treated feng/taiga/feng feng taiga and jeremy to ajisen ramen,
Sunday- Went to eat steak at astons prime with the same two people.
finally had my macaroni and cheese.

No school tomorrow! All thanks to the awesome sec 4 and 5 batch of 09. I see already also stressed,

Think im heading down to see dar tomorrow. Miss him a lot.
In the meantime, having some intensive training to improve my bb and games along that line, hopefully it'll be successful.

Nothing much to say now, update next time.
Ps: Astons prime steak is really really good.

"You are here."

Just read that book today, Apparently it was so good, i couldnt stop reading it,

I can almost imagine her calling out, 'dear dear.'
And everything. I think I know how she felt when he screams at her..

I don't want him to be taken from me forcfully.
I promise I will treasure him,
...
Only that I know I say the stupidest of things sometimes.

In a sorrow space,
In my deepest dreams,
I remember, I remember seeing you
I remember your eyes
I remember your smile
I remember you

In a lonely night,
As I remember, I remember,
I remember hearing you
I remember your words
I remember your breath
I remember you

Chorus:
As I feel cold, I feel cold,
You give me your clothes; you give me your warm
As I feel hungry, I feel hunger
You give me your food; you feed me with life
As I feel down, I feel depressed
You give me hope; you feel me hope
You are here

In a sorrow space,
In my deepest dreams,
I remember, I remember seeing you
I remember your eyes
I remember your smile
I remember you

I love the lyrics, though its not really a song.
...
I love you,

Thank you dear

Was alseep soundly till 7.00 am this morn, and the best thing that woke me up was his call!

I guess he wanted to see if I'm awake. Yawns...

Better get something done by tonight. Tired to the max
Waiting for dar's call.
...
Will continue to attempt to finish my english compre and compo.

2010

The first day is nice enough,
First day of school was okay okay, except for the pile of holiday homework I have yet to complete.

So many things lined up for me in jan,
16 jan, parents-teacher meeting, I am so not looking forward to this.
Then I have camp at the end of jan. Argh. I hate camps.

Time to go finish my lot of homework.

SJ3 is mine

2009..the most eventful year of my life?

Its the second last year of my secondary school life,
And I actually met you,

To think I was trying to be someone I was not,
after thinking back, its just NOT worth it.

Dear, its about 9 months and still going?
I spent,
-120409, our first day together.
-120509, your birthday together.
-National day
-Christmas eve
-Christmas day
-New years eve
-New years day!
All together with you.

...

2010,
I will face this year with a positive attitude.
Gambatte!