Im trying. Really...I am

Dear, from now on.
I'll try not to
-use sia
-use vulgarities
-use 'cannot arh'
and i can't remember all the other things that make you unhappy. I will not do it. But give me time, I need time to change.

From who I was and to become someone new.
The thought is really scary, freaky.
Like, woah. Me not using those words are a little hard to imagine.
But if it's for you,
Fine. Im willing to change.

I love him. Alot.
The way that he would call, and try to sound cheerful cos Im always commenting that he sounds emo.
The way that he would ruffle my hair and play with it.
The way that he would carry my bag and sometimes, his camera bag at the same time.
The way that he holds my hand when we're walking.
The way that he looks at my scars
The way that he feels my pain.
The way that he smiles, the way that he would look when I ruffle his hair and then try to make it back.
The way that he looks when he's emoing.
The way his voice sounds, when he's happy when he's sad.
The way that he looks when he's serious.
The way he shouts when he's irritated(usually when we're playing L4D)
The way he sounds when he shouts, "Boomer!" XD
The way he looks when he's tired. The way he looks when he looks at me.
The way he would ask me whether I'm alright.
Theres a hell lot more, but since dear doesnt like long posts. I'll stop here, for now.