Its just simply strange.

He said, he was talking to her...

That got me going to his blog posts...reading about how much he suffered last time.

He also told me this before, :" Correct what, I like older girls. They're more mature. Even if I were to fall for a younger girl, she must be daaaaamn mature."

Um...um...um...im not.

It seems like im only getting in your way.

TT

Useless, cant seem to do anything right.

I cant even understand you.

So into your arms of comfort, I ran.

2 days of school, proved horrible.

____

Heard about drag me to hell from classmates, all sounded quite fun. Lets organise a group get-together, and lets watch it. :D Jere, Wan feng, Alwyn, Amos, Joseph, Nic, and shaun? They're all boys...-.- Unfortunately, the only girl that I got to know in 2 years hates me. And not for anything I meant or not..to do. (Its really not on purpose/my fault)

I havent been studying much, only listening in class. Copying random notes, getting ready for prelims. However, it has been maple ever since I came back from school.

Im level 53 now, Im not satisfied, well. Of course. Im not really surprised. Wan feng is talking on the phone now, speaking of which, from his conversation he is so conviniently letting me hear, He is not coming on maple anytime soon, well, there goes my ringer. On a random note, im really starting to grow on last remnant.

Well, I believe putting the phone on hold and rushing off for a quick shower won't make any differences, so here goes.

Later, maybe tomorrow, maybe never,

Yuki

Tears are becoming more uncontrollable now.

Whenever I think about school re opening, I am scared.

I don't want to study study study, and then fail,

When I study, I also don't know where to start. What to study, or whether im studying the correct thing.

Teachers say that only 10% of us will make it through N levels.

Mum said I must pass or everyone will start blaming her.

I don't know what to do.

Im lost...

Happy 85th post. Have I been blogging that much?

When we're apart whatever are you thinking of?

Or rather in this case, dreaming.

Why am I not surprised?

So many things happened. So tired.

Thanks jere and feng for yesterday. Thanks for staying with me in the 107M.

L4D yet again, and horribly failed this time. Really dont know what happened to me. Kenna boomer vomit, jumped out of the window by myself. And kenna die.

Feng also died. Smokered and died.

I think jere survived only.

Went to suntec after ishi mura, played arcade until 10.30. Reached home around 11 plus.

Bathed, talked to feng until 1 plus. Then woke up around 8.30. And...studied a bit, Sleep. Mapled.

I think tmr going feng's house. With jere and amos.

I can't talk...I don't know what to say.

Dear, maybe only him...can make you laugh this way, its probably something I'll never be able to do. Sorry, Im useless.

Maybe I'm just..really not your type.

Spent the whole of last night talking about how stupid maple story 2 is.

While playing it. =X

...

I have to study.

I really really do.

One more post before I really have to shower.

Dear is in malaysia today. Decided not to anti myself with maple. Going out later, to play lan with jere and shaun. :D

Awesome dinner at ishi mura(yishun) yesterday, Walked around with dear. In the end, took away rice home too. Mapled, went to sleep. Woke up at 7 plus, talked to dear until no connection. Went back to sleep and woke up around 10.

I want ishi mura today too. =X

My forgiving boyfriend

Thanks for today. Yummy lunch, well. Nice lunch at the bubble tea shop consisting of cup noodles, fries and passionfruit green tea followed by peppermint milk tea. Nice nap followed by yummy dinner at ishi mura. Dessert at ice monster, mango shaved ice. =D Dinner was awesome, talking with chris lee and his friend...xiang an is it? o.0

Oyaku chicken don and ramen is love. :D

Two months already. Each day being with you will be the greatest day of my life.

I love you.

Thanks for being understanding, forgiving, thrifty(yes, I do embrace this side of you once in a while). Always considering my welfare, letting me have my way sometimes, knowing when Im hungry(i'm still touched by this cos not many people would bother) And the list goes on.

But dear dear dear, can we eat at Ishi mura today? XD

This is where our journey ends

Now that you have them, its time for me to go.

It just can't carry on, what happened today was simply the most insulting thing I could recieve...from you. And ironically, I expected the most from you. Besides my boyfriend at least.

Sighs. I should learn to understand you. But I never did, and you assumed I never tried.

Or at least, to be evil. I didn't bother to actually try. I should have listened, but I really trusted you. More then I understood you anyway.

What you asked me to do and what we did, was the biggest insult to our friendship.
I REALLY should have listened

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I don't know what came over me yesterday. Maybe it was stress, I don't know. I hate myself. 

Hopefully, tomorrow will have a promising buffet trip. 

Later,

I'll love him till I die

Yesterday was damn fun! 

Woke dear at 5.30. Long story but in the end, he was working at 7pm. He went home, we mapled/do stuff for mum. Supposed to go jere's house at 9 but in the end, went around 12. (Dear went to sleep)

Joseph and jere were there. They were playing GE. Then slacked, and went to eat lunch. Imba fish and chips. ^^

Issac came next. I called Dear and we all yelled for him to come down. Fever, high ler. 

Which in the end, he did. 

We used jere's bedroom for awhile. Before Amos called, dear went to play CS. While amos is on his way down, I fell alseep while hearing joseph's piano playing, River flows in you ftw!

Went down to fetch amos, slack a bit before going off to wt. 

Food was awesome. We played chess before bringing them to the bus stop. Amos and Issac left first. Damn interesting to see dear work. ^^

A good end to a great day. Dear ended work, called around 9 ot 10.30? Cant remember. Went home, mapled. And talked until 3. 

Meeting him at 11, will he be able to wake up?

I believe today would be another great day. Maybe lanning? 

Even if maple is a senseless game, mapling with you is really very fun. 

You said something, "I okayy der. Most important is you." 

My heart really just skipped a beat. Of course I want to see you tomorrow, but work hard alright?

Not like you'll be seeing this...have a good rest.

Level till 22 today. 12 levels in one day. ^^ All thanks to dear who trained me, bought me equip and all. 

Hm. Im going off to sleep.

Face book quiz.

What are you really afraid of?

You tend to laugh and joke around when you are with everyone, but you feel lonely and empty when are all alone. you cry alone when you have stress and problems. you often have many problems that are bugging you, but you never show them out on your face. you are not as cheerful as they thought, but you just don't wish to spoilt the mood of everyone, hence you hide your emotions inside. you are just a weak human with feelings afterall

Maybe its really true. Shrugs. 

I'm not really acting cheerful..but. Still...

"Cardinal Baggia," the killer hissed, "have you prayed yet?"

The Italian's eyes were fearless, "Only for your soul."

Okay, I memorised that entire part of angels and demons. And in my opinion, that is the best part of the book.

I'm still waiting for a number of things.

Da vinci code. 

Maple server check to end, so I can get my 1000 maple leaves and get my maple earrings

And I need to rehunt alot of other stuff, Oh god.

Hopefully, can go out tomorrow. And damn sick of intensive lessons, when it havent even started. 

How will I survive?

Went back to mapling. ^^

Not planning to get addicted. But just playing for the fun of it. 

I am reminded of all the nice people I met in maple. It really did change my life